can i have a gold star?
i just feel like, despite the crap that happened, i am somehow back to normal. i feel like everything that went, well wonky, at the end of spring has somehow managed to re-arrange itself and fit back into the proper order of things. i suppose that doesn't quite make sense. strange how i can't make sense in plain english, but can somehow manage iambic pentameter.
if i were to describe it, i suppose i would have to say that i feel as though i am back to being the person i was before life went wonky, but at the same time, i am a new person who has grown from this haneous 7-month experience. i really feel like "Aino" again. for the longest time, i felt like i had lost myself, as though my sense of self and direction had become distorted. i had all of these things happening to me at once, all impacting me one after the other in a merciless barrage of soul-weakening artillery. but the smoke from the cease-fire has finally lifted, and i can see everything again.
well, not everything. thats the great part about life. you don't know which direction its going to go, all you can do is pick a road and do your best to travel it with a level head and full wallet.
i have neither o_O......
